4.21.10 1:06am

I lie awake and think

Think about it all

All it is that I miss

A hand to hold

That reassuring smile

Tender kisses

Comforting, warm embraces

Love

I lie awake and think

Think about it all

All it is that I don't miss

The fights

The tears

His dictatorship

I lie awake and think

Think about it all

That I know I'm better off

Better off without him

Unlucky

I hate how easily disappointed

I get because of him.

My friend was right,

I'm unlucky when it comes to men.

I just want to find that guy,

You know the one who doesn't disappoint.

The guy who is there for me

And loves me for me.

I guess, that's every girl's wish.

Until then, I guess I'll be disappointed

And unlucky when it comes to love.

Writer's Block

Blink. Blink. Blink.

The cursor taunts and torments you.

Blink. Blink. Blink.

"Haha! Loser," it chants.

Blink. Blink. Blink.

"You don't know what to write!"

Blink. Blink. Blink.

"You call yourself a writer?!"

Blink. Blink. Blink.

"You, a writer? No way in HELL man."

Blink. Blink. Blink.

Fingers poised at the keyboard,

Ready to pounce.

Blink. Blink. Blink.

Nothing comes.

No words.

No ideas.

Blink. Blink. Blink.

Swiftly, the mouse drifts.

Blink. Blink. Blink.

And with one quick click

Of that tiny red X,

The blinking ceases.

Defeated, yet again.

In Your Eloquence

I sit next to you

Listening to your eloquent words

I look around

And that’s when I see

You and Her.

She holds your heart

Who am I kidding

To think that I could ever hold your heart

When she still does

And as it seems

Always will.

Circles

Spinning in circles

We can't move forward.

The same words slip through your lips, again.

Still spinning,

You reach out

A signal of hope that maybe, just maybe it's time to move forward.

But you let go

And we keep spinning.

How long are we going to keep spinning in these circles

Before we get too dizzy

Before it is time to move on?

Circles may have no end

But this circle that we are spinning in,

Its end is near.

Questions

Do you think They can hear us talking,

the Angels,

Even when we don't say a word?

Do you think that They watch over us,

Protect us

Even when we don't believe?

Do you think that They perform miracles

to make us believe?

Do you think that They walk among us

Performing random acts of kindness

Even when nobody cares?

They are the good in this world of evil.

Believe in Them,

And They believe in You.

11:11

It's 11:11, make a wish.

Go on, make another wish

To add to the wishes that will never come true.

It's 11:11.

Go on little girl, make a wish

To add to the expectations that will never be reality.

It's 11:11

What are you going to wish for?